4th feb 2012
22.51
wendyhouse
wow how time flies,things happen and seasons changed...
halloween in autumn...
christmas and new year...
now its almost Valentines and thinking about it makes me smile..
days that had gone,
days that i look forward to waking up to..
a lot of things happpened and still kepps happenning in my life
that i never even thought of happenning..
my life was in turmoil..
then confusion, alot of emotions..
and trying to breath above water all the time..
but that is my life ...
and it will never be perfect,in a perfect world
trying to move on to more positive thing
inspite of all the rials that keeps propping up everyday!
but today...whatever they are i thought to myself,
thye will be sorted xxx one way or another...
so as i was travelling away from the place where i stay
a lot of things were on my mind,
where i thought to myself,this time last year how my life was different,
now i found myself in unfamiliar territory
with a different kind of lovestory...
but why instead of feeling complicated or unhappy
sad even...
i feel very happy and lucky?
it maybe not what others would agree on or even think of as right,
so i have asked this before to myself,
should i stay with someone that i feel unhappy with,but people consider
in my situation as right?
time will tell...
i shook my head and smile..
and up to today
everyday is a busy day..
but along the way i met different wonderful people
ladies who are in the same situation as i am,
spent some time with them,
chatting and talking about things that made us go this way...
different lives,different reasons
i know each one was curious how the other Sugarbaby would have looked
in person,in reality
but the most important thing is whatever is taking place in everything i do,
there is some one who is always supportive of me...xxx
its amazing how i felt that He will always understand me
all these in my thoughts as i travel to see Him,
its been a dreamy week,
stressful for Him
but still,manage to see me whatever spare time he can give..
we met at the same place and as we walked our hands entwined,
it started to snow... * * *
i smiled as this is the first snow that i have been with this man...
there was rain,wind,sunshine
and now snow makes it complete xxx
we got in the small place for a drink and a bit of food :)
we were sat in a corner and just couldnt take my eyes off of him..
you see,i didnt think we will see each other this evening
just kept looking at his blue eyes..
just couldnt stop kissing him..
is this how it should be?
when you fall inlove with somebody?
wow
even i dont understand myself
why i behave the way i do
when He is around lol
looking outside the restaurant,
i can see the snow coming down
then i look around
while touching his hand...
then i see him smile at me...
this hour we have,
i cant help but think all the minutes i am with him
is such a wonderful time..
a lovely winter evening ..
an hour spent kissing and touching ..whispering
sweet nothings
with a board on the wall
that has cupids drawn in the corners
as always time seems to stop,
then suddenly it is time to say goodbye
walking down to get my train home,
we were holding hands,
the snow coming down
and me trying to catch some on my tongue!!!
haha
laughing and giggling
i held him and snogged him...
omg i cant get enough of him!
in the corner of my mind,
as we say goodbye,
as always i take a piece of him with me,
not wanting to let go,but i always know..
this is how it will be ...
as he walks away he takes a piece of my heart,
to carry in his pocket while we are apart...
as always this is a dreamy evening...
and i know it is one of those things
that i have done with him that i will keep locked up in a box..
safely keep it in my heart..
for i know that one day,i might need to take it out...
when i am low and things seems not to go right...
there is something there in my box
for me to think of this magical night xxx
